Wednesday, March 30, 2011

hold your breath, make a wish, count to three, come with me.

days like today, the only thing i can do is get lost in good movies (usually musicals... you know, gentlemen prefer blondes, funny face, willy wonka) and completely retract from reality.

although, per my new zen master's advice, i will later turn this negative energy into something constructive in the form of delicious dinner. until then, it's 6:16pm and i'm already in my pajamas in bed.

today started good. should have been good. could have been good. any day your doctor calls and says something like "it's not cancer" should be good, yes? yes. okay. so we begin.

today i got called a word i've only been called by one other person ever. funny thing is, the two people who have ever said this word to me, well, they are opposites. one i love, the other i hate. and they hate each other. and yet we have agreement? even in anger or confusion? haha, ok then, life. irony of ironies.

on that note, i've over shared. and it's time for me to get lost in wonka land. i think i had a glimmer at my very own wonka land, full of bubble baths, dreadlocks, giggles and the brothers spartacus and crixus. but just like the stinky little four other than charlie, things like selfishness, greed and pride seem to have stripped it from my grasp.

all i ask is a tall ship and a star to sail her by.

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

never even been here.

that long lost familiar urge to run, to purge my heart?

it's creeping up again.

to fight to stay open or just close? i think you may have already decided for me.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

dear bettie c:

you win. consider this my white flag.

not at all sincerely or with love,


Friday, March 18, 2011


just let that shit go. live here, live now. feel the wind blow your hair into your eyes, feel your skin warmed by the sun, taste the lips of the one who loves truly.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011